Good Byee are too Difficult

 It was the year 2005 and the time we shifted to our house. I was just a little kid back then and the place where we had shifted had many children of my age. So, moving to this place and getting comfortable here was kinda easy for me.

I even made friends, and that too very early. They too did not take much time to accept me as a part of their group. We were a group of 8 kids who played every evening, fought a lotttt, and did everything together. Months and months passed and as we grew older, all of us eventually got separated. It was just me and her who was left and probably we only had each other in all aspects ..

Then after some time, unfortunately even though we moved to different cities, we still shared the same bond with each other, the one we shared when we saw each other every day. We kept in contact, chased each other, made fun, and did a lot more. During the pandemic, everyone was far away but we were still together. We rather came too close in these 2 years. We shared all our ups and downs with each other. I always saw my little sister in her. I sometimes got irritated with her but still, I did care for her and loved her a lot. During our night walks (which were my favorite part), we used to discuss the things going on in each of our families and even planned for my wedding haha. Things like what I'd wear, what would be the bridesmaids' gifts, where will we shop etc etc... and all other endless talks.

One day, she announced that she wanted to pursue higher studies. 'I will go for GATE' she said. I motivated and supported her in every way I could and luckily, she cleared her exam too. She had a lot of colleges to choose from and was very deep thinking about what would be best for her.  She was preferring to get a college in Delhi, and I was very happy with her decision. Around that very time, we were in a conversation that we would move together in the mid-way and would stay together.

We always wanted to be with each other. Then one day, I was in my office, and I got a call from her, and I was in complete shock as she had got a college in Surat, which was almost 17 hours away. 'Oh god! How will we manage things?' was my foremost reaction.

I wasn't feeling good at all. I just couldn't handle the thought of her getting away.

As I went back home, I saw her sitting with all the sadness she could gather at once. Even though I was not happy, with her career, I accepted the fact that she had to go, and even motivated her.

Now, the time has finally come, just a few hours are left. I did not know how to say goodbye to her, coz I never did. She was never away from me, always by my side, securing her special place in my heart.

I didn't know how I will manage without her, who will accompany me on night walks, who will listen to all the thoughts going in my mind all day, who will handle my mood swings.... The questions were endless. But i don't want to come in your way by being selfish.. So, all the very best bro...Hope to see you super soon...