My Day in Black

Today was my first day in the cubical, was excited & nervous too. I would be meeting the people who was in contact virtually. There were to birds on my shoulder the negative and the positive one.

Negative: they will not like you at all. 

Positive: things will take time to build up understanding.

I preferred to ignore both and planned to go with the flow. As soon as, I reached the cubical it was so big so beautiful, feels like just capture everything every small thing which was in front of me.

I entered the building there was a beautiful girl well dressed, beautiful smile, very polite and she gave us warm welcome and provide me the details how to reach to my desk. What things will be required to enter the cubical and gave us welcome chocolates. Every single step was so joyful it feels like I am watching any series at my place with lots of popcorn and chilled cold drink. 

The time I entered my place everyone was busy in their own day activities; nobody even looked at me at that time. It feels like I am an invisible person to them like Mr. India. My moral at that time was very low. I was very nervous. Are they the ones who I was talking too? Why didn’t they even look at me? Am I looking foolish? I just kept on questioning my-selves instead of understanding the situation that maybe they had not even seen me, they only listened to my voice. So, I did.

There was a saying “ jb kisi situation mai ho toh sb galt hi smjh ata hai “

I said “Hi” to the person I was sitting next too. We introduced to each other and then I asked him can you please show me the cubical where we have the access to go. He made me familiar to the different places and help to have the best coffee of the cubical. Then we came back to our desk and then I started working with my daily stuff. Then came lots of more people on the floor at least they all came to me and made small intro about themselves. I was so happy atleast I’m visible to them. Everything was on track. I found the person with whom I talked a lot in the cubical, I waved at him but he dint’ even respond back. I prefer to ignore everything and concentrate back to my screen. Many of them where scrolling, laughing and few were working.

I felt alone at that time, but this was place where I belong now. Some are toxic, some are supportive and some I even do not know. May be by the time I will be part of them or maybe I will be alone. Let’s see what this cubical has planned for me...