New Day, New Chapter New Start

Today was the first day of my new job. It was a mixed feeling, was among a new crowd where no one knows me. I was so blank at the start of the day. They were introducing me to the new co-workers, but were not able to find anyone in the whole cubic whom I know in the new place. They were ragging me by asking me to sing a song for them or do something for them.

After some time few of the HR came for the induction session where they told us about the rules and regulations of this organization.

After the session of 3 hours, we were back to our cubic. I was assigned to a new desk, new chair everything was so new that make me lost somewhere in my thoughts to the unknown world of the new crowd around. That time, I miss my old desk, my older people who used to make me, comfortable, who chit chat with me the entire day. This is the part of life. We cannot stick to the same chair for long. 

I was not happy, but trying my level best to control my emotions among the people who were trying hard to make me, comfortable, but still, there were so many emotions that were stopping me to express what I was going through.

There was a time I was assigned to one person who has to train me with the list of roles I will be handling in the future. He asks too many questions from me, but I don't know what I had spoken to in front of him.

Maybe he felt I will going to be the worst employee of the organization or maybe he can feel I was nervous in the new environment. He just laughed and made me understand the complete process. I was busy with the notes and all the details we were providing me during the time.

With the passing of 3 hours here comes the call from one of my BFFs. She always has my heart she understood my emotions, made me comfortable without expressing what I had been through. Now I was back with my confidence, my style of working. At the time of  Q&A I was better at this time I answered every question which was asked.

The feeling of relaxation arrived at that time. So, maybe I tried my level best at the end to prove that I can do it.

So, in the end, it was the worst start, but the nice ending of the first day.

My Journey till the last day

It's been almost 4 years working with the organization. It feels like a family, the day I started working with people who had different mindsets, don't even don't like me or to work with me, always bitches about me. I always tried to be very nice to them, supported them with their work also even when they are in need of any help. But Ache logo KO nobody likes.  

After a lot of effort and JUGAR, I became the spoc of the team, too much of the floor existence I had. People from different departments started liking me the way I am. Earlier, my image was very bad because of some bad people's controversies they always portray me wrong. After having the title of Spoc people started to know me the way I am the real me. After the efforts of 2 years, the process with which I was involved was windup from the organization. No one on the entire floor wanted to take me along. I tried to go to interviews, but still, nobody wanted me to be in the organization now. But I was chosen by one of the Managers maybe he was not left with any choice.  

But there is always a saying "if you don't have someone God will always be there for you". 

On an upcoming day, there was an ethnic day competition in our organization. this year I tried to be Ms. Ethnic because I want to show everyone that yes, I am also the capable person to do something. In the end, I got the award. This was our last ceremony in the process. Many of them made bad faces at my achievement many were happy to see me. I was happy because I tried my best to achieve this.

In our end days, people were not happy, maybe they were comfortable with the double face people. But I was happy because I was going in between the people who were very new to me who actually don't know who am i. At the back, I was at the option in that group I made double efforts so that they would never choose me as an option I wanted to be the priority in this group. They choose me, they accepted me the way I am. They wanted me to grow, to learn, to achieve different things. they always supported me during my days.

Now is the time I have to go ahead with more progress in my life. So, I have decided to tie up with some other organization. I had given interviews and got selected by other organizations.

But it's very difficult to leave that family who supported me who showed me my positive side, who always wanted to be the best. Now that particular chair will not be mine. I will no longer be part of a morning and the day ends calls. The same people will not chase me with the problems &  solutions. I will miss you all so much. But thank you so much for being a part of my journey.